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11.6.06

i ve one last paper to go anddddd its my hols aft monday 2pm!
woohoo.
two of my friday pprs were so screwed, goodbye As oh just shut up!
i doubt i can enjoy myself much during hols.
i still ve to worry abt my projects and SIP interview which is on wed.
mayb i am lucky to be shortlisted for the interview.
but its darn far - toa payoh UOB call centre!(where the hell is toa payoh)
mayb i shud just screw up the whole interview!
i dont wish to be a call operator for 3months man.
sighs.
i am so not in the mood to study for my last paper!
i was trying so hard to get outta my hse yday.
jing's such a good influence yday, asking me to stay at home to s-t-u-d-y?!
siew went for malay wedding dinner.(how come so many of your friends are getting married?)
so in the end i went town w ah gua.
he pon NS w/o having his hair shaved.
ohh its ah guang's international friendship day yday!
he's so damn popular(yea right), meeting his friends everywhere he goes.
yday was soccer at ah gua's hse w andrew & eug. (yea, i ran away from home)
though i am not a soccer person, at least i managed to stay wide awake yday night.
better than those stupid sleepy ah guas!

my parents are selfish ppl thats why they gave birth to a selfish girl like me.
they expect me to stay at home rotting alone w/o realising they ve neglected me for the past few months.
OTs OTs and OTs.
how i wish my mum can be a housewife or best still Tai Tai.
and how i wish my daddy can stopped abusing me verbally w all his vulgarities.
he should be glad that i didnt master that or got that from his genes man.
i kept my cool, i didnt even bother to scold him the F word.
yes we quarrelled and i turned my whole room upside down and drank my birdnest.
alright i am sorry for throwing tantrums. seriously i cant helped it!
anyw everything is ok this morn.
andddddd bcus of all these shit, daddy strike 4d at night.
all thanks to me!
anyw i ve told them i shall go back to work(at least i dont ve to come home early) if all these shit happen again.
its either you let me work or let me go anywhere i want mannnnnn!
my home is not a home anymore, its more like a hotel, worse still - a jail!
i miss home cooked food.
i ve been eating maggi mee and packed food for the past few weeks.

denise screamed @ 11.6.06

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