black; all noise

25.3.06

i am so upset with everything and i dont know why.
unappreciated. useless. friendless.
i miss my old bestest friends.
i feel like i am losing all of them, one by one, slowly.
mayb becus of work, mayb ive been a badfriend, mayb becus i rarely turn up for gatherings, mayb becus of my attitude, mayb this mayb that.
i hate it when i am not appreciated.
i hate to feel that i am not needed not remembered.
i hate to be left out.
i hate it when ive to put on a strong front and a stupid smiling face when i am not happy at all.
i hate this i hate that, arghh i hate myself.
why cant i be tall slim pretty rich smart sociable popular just like some ppl out there.
why must i be the opp.
why am i so pathetic.
i am just a fussy whiny demanding 38 spoilt bitch.
anddd i dont feel loved at all.

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna screammmmmmmm
How could this happen to me

denise screamed @ 25.3.06

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