black; all noise

16.12.04

2wks.
no good no good!
lecturers r so eeerky.
n i ve knew none of my new frens.
hi-bye frens perhaps?
i dun belong to tt class.
everyone seems to settle down alrd.
but nt me.
i felt so lonely in class.
though i ve 2 of my mates together w me.
somehow jus culdn't click w em.
one - too quiet/cool.
e other - pang seh me.
but no choice.
no1 to stick to alrd.

i miss my clique, my old class.
e laughters, lame jokes, shopping sprees, n lunchtime.
so sad.
dun wish to tok anymore in class.
i can jolly well remain to b a nobody.

todae.
was late for tutorial.
supposed to meet my fren.
i was late, so she jus went off w/o me.
almost lose my way todae.
sigh!
had 2hrs break b4 my cds tut.
thanks august for acc me for e 1st hr.
i was all by myself.
jus sat in e library to pass time.
ALONE.
sigh.
jap lesson was tough.
getting tougher n tougher.
lin told me onli 20% of e stud will pass jap.
my god.
hope i'll b e 20%.
but i know i wun.
i'm jus too unlucky.
first was e htm's interview,
followed by my cds,
den my class.

i felt so UNLOVED.
felt so LEFTOUT.
felt so LONELY.
felt like a piece of SHIT.
sigh.
hate myself.
tml will b a beta day.

denise screamed @ 16.12.04

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